Scales From My Eyes

Most of my life, I never question what my mind tells me.  I like this, I don’t like that, this person is okay and that one’s an asshole.  I never questioned the authority of self… the mind that tells me what’s what.  What I find is that when I do question “my truth” I open up to a much larger truth.

I use my eyesight to navigate in the world and my perception is always accurate, to me.  You might say it’s my ‘truth’.  But that doesn’t make it “the” truth, it’s just my truth based on my life experiences.  My perception of what “the” truth is, is often distorted by some of my experiences. We each have our own perceptions based on our experiences.  But, you have to admit, our perception is sometimes distorted.  Our distorted perception has put scales in front of our eyes.  So let’s call our perception the ‘distorted truth’.

Underneath the distorted truth is apparent truth?  Apparent truth is what is apparently so.  Let’s say it’s 80 degrees outside.  That may be hot for some, nice for others, comfortable, uncomfortable, whatever but the apparent truth, it’s 80 degrees.  My eyesight, my opinion, or my distorted truth, has no effect on apparent truth, it’s just what it is, 80 degrees.  When I let go of the consciousness of what my distorted truth is telling me, I rise to what is apparently true and, I come closer to “the” truth.

With Awareness …that there just might be something more than apparent truth …and the willingness to Pause …and let go of what seems apparent,  I can let go of my worldly perception… (more scales from my eyes)… and begin to look from a new perspective …insight …Inner sight!  Instead of use my eyes with all their scales, I can Ask for a new perception, a new vision of what the truth is.  And I shall Receive.

Why?  Because, deep down in every man, woman, and child is the fundamental idea of God… in the end, it is only there that it can be found.  When I ask that part of me for the new perception …what I then receive …doesn’t come from my mind …or the world’s view …it comes from the core of my being… God.  Creation itself.  And It’s always brand new… so it rarely seems like the right answer to me …because it didn’t come from my mind.

The question is not, will I receive.  The question is always, will I Trust enough to take action on what I receive, in spite of my eyesight and what seems apparent?

Do I ever misinterpret the messages I receive?  Absolutely, but this is a method I have found that really works!  Even when I make mistakes, it builds my relationship with my creator.  Not a theoretical or intellectual one …an actual living …day-to-day …personal relationship that grows stronger each day. And as the scales fall away, I begin to remember …who …I am.  And then I remember who you are …we are no longer separate or apart from …we are a part of the whole.  I find the word ‘holy’ a very interesting word.  My definition is:  The conscious recognition that we are equal parts of the one whole. We are One.

So anytime you don’t like how you’re feeling, try …  Taking it A.P.A.R.T.  … so it can come together!

For more info on the APART method or to schedule a talk or workshop please contact me at:

paul@possidude.com  or (951) 751-7541

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The Core of Selfishness

I woke up around 5:45 am and started planning my day, the problems I might have, how to get it all done, the regular stuff.  I managed to mumble some kind of a prayer about God directing my thinking.  When I rolled over, my girlfriend was standing there wishing me a good morning….

She lives a few houses away.  I told her a hundred times I need my space in the morning and I felt the anger start.  I wanted to yell at her and throw her out, but I ‘knew’ something else… she climbed into bed (fully clothed) and wrapped herself around me… I asked God, what is going on here?  I just let, what is, be.  I started to feel something in my stomach… it felt good… this woman loved me.  Here she is offering me all this love and I want to throw her out.  Isn’t this what I’ve wanted my whole life… someone to just love me unconditionally?  I started to ask myself, what the hell is wrong with me.  I hadn’t noticed until then that when I first woke up I wasn’t feeling anything at all… it was all thought, and none of it very good.

But now, I was feeling good…  I rolled over to face her… I couldn’t help but notice how beautiful she was… how good she felt in my arms.  She got me out of my head with all its crazy thoughts, and into my body.  When I’m centered in my body, I feel good… when I feel good, I thank God for the feeling… when I thank God for the feeling, I appreciate life… when I appreciate life, I see the beauty of life everywhere.

And then it hit me, what my problem was and always has been… I’m so dam selfish!  I’d rather hang onto my own miserable thoughts than allow myself to experience the love that is constantly being offered to me by my creator through whatever is present in the moment.  I hold onto my own ideas at all costs.  It’s like I thumb my nose at the gift of life and try to create my own version of heaven, which usually turns out to be hell.

I read recently that the highest thoughts are those that contain joy… the highest words are those that contain truth… the highest feelings are those that we call love… these things are of God… anything else is not of God.  It matters not where you begin… one always leads to the other… thought… word… deed…

When she offered me the love and I let myself have it, my feelings changed… when my feelings changed, I told her how wonderful she was… when I told her the truth, my thoughts changed and I couldn’t even remember what I was worried about… I was living in God’s world… full of appreciation and love.  And by leaving the sex out there was no danger of perverting this moment into something selfish.

I recognized that it is only my selfish pursuit of my misdirected thoughts that produce my own misery.  Thank you God for that awareness!

You Can’t Help It

I was talking with a friend today about walking in the real world, not the world as we see it with our physical eyes, but in the world as our creator sees it.  We had a conversation around asking for the right perception as we go through today’s day.  We both committed to ask for the presence that is who ‘I am’, our soul, our spirit, our savior, or just plain something (#1 name for God) to guide us and show us how to walk in this day… each step.

Now I know I won’t be able to do that perfectly, probably, if I’m  lucky (Gods nickname), I’ll remember to ask for that presence a few times today.  But, if I don’t quit, I can’t fail.  If I do it today as often as I can and I do it one day at a time, I’ll build an awareness of what it feels like.  As we walked together in this conversation, my friend said to me “I feel like I’m walking in the Garden of Eden”.  And we were, because when I let go of the “things” of the world (all my thoughts), the truth underlying them presents itself in its fullness and the world, as it was intended by its creator is revealed.

As we were saying our goodbyes, my friend was thanking me and I was thanking him and he was saying how grateful he was for our little talk.  I shouted out to him “you can’t help it”.  And you can’t help it.  The truth does not need my help.  I need to align myself with it.  When I do, I can see the world new in each moment, when I don’t and I try to help it along, I get caught in the mire and lose my awareness of love’s presence.  That’s okay, I’m going to do that, but as often as I can, I can let go and ask for that presence to be there and it will because the truth is always true, everywhere, and in all ways.  Thank you very much!

Recreation (take five)

Here’s what five minutes of meditation brought me this morning.

My thought life is unmanageable.  There is no way I can be satisfied by what my mind comes up with by itself.  What does that mean?  It means I am more than my mind.  Who I am is a three-part being, soul, mind, and body.  Because I never developed my soul, I try to figure out my life with my mind alone… bypass my soul…  and take action with my body.  I’m constantly chasing my tail.  I have to let go of my thoughts and allow who(?) I am, to be there.  The spiritual man.

Nothing I know from the neck up will save me.  What am I being saved from?  My mis-taken beliefs of who, “I think”, I am!

I get quiet…  use my words… to ask that presence… that is who… I am… to stop my thoughts… move into my heart…  feel that presence beating my heart…  breathing my breath.  When I feel that presence…  I am open to receive…   ideas…  flowing from my source… which inspires (inwardly spirits) my mind…  to create that which I am here to create.  My mind… is myend… of the one mind (of God).  When I pause…  and re-member who, I am…  creation expresses itself through me…  to create…  in harmony with other myends…  the world…  as creation intends it to be.

Now that I am in my heart…  inspirit-a-tion is flowing in…  as…  and through me.  I can take action…  using my body and mind, in the physical world…  to put these words on paper… to re-mind you…  to re-member…  who you are.  However, I’m still new at this.  I have an undisciplined mind… it runs on its own… most of the time… I disconnect from inspiration… the source of my creation… all day long…  and try to live on myend power alone.  When that happens…  I experience pain… discomfort… negativity… I have temporarily forgotten who I am.  I need you…whoever you are…  to re-mind me… of who… I am.  We are not a-lone, we are all-one!  We need… each… other.   Let’s co-operate and re-create together…  the world…  as it was always intended to be.

Join us for a little recreation… as we utilize percussion instruments in a drum circle setting to re-cognize, how to get, and stay, connected… both  individually… and collectively… to the one whole…

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Till then just… take five……

Naked Prayer

I got up one morning and forgot to do my normal prayer and meditation.   While sitting on the toilet, naked, the thought came ‘why not meditate here?’.   I was shocked, once again, to see how much resistance I had to even consider such an idea.  I mean, I know it doesn’t matter where I pray, but the idea of being naked, sitting on the throne, where all that “dirty stuff goes on” and mixing that with prayer…  well it felt blasphemous!

It’s always a strange feeling when I question my old belief system.  I talk about letting go and letting God all the time…  having no secrets… it’s just me and God… and still somehow, my training in right and wrong thinking insists that this is wrong.  It’s the most private and natural setting for prayer, let’s face it. It is the one place we all let go and sit naked before our creator (our creator being everywhere).  So what’s the big deal?  Then it came to me, it isn’t where I pray but my earnest desire to commune with my creator that mattered.

I don’t know who told me there was a place for prayer and a place for poop and never the twain shall meet, but they were wrong… there is no place that God is not!  If I pray, that makes me a pray er and my very life becomes a living prayer… everywhere I go!

The “Fund a MentaI Ideas” of God (part1)

“Deep down in every man woman and child is the fundamental idea of God.” I never thought of God as an idea, I always thought of God as a being, a physical presence, an entity separate from me. When I began to look at that statement and consider it for what it actually says a “fundamental idea”. It says God is the “fund” of “mental ideas”, or that from which all ideas come. Ideas then are God, and thoughts are our representation of these ideas. Our con-fusion comes when we “think” we created the idea and believe we are separate from our creator.

It can be looked at as lightning. God is the lightning and we stand-under it but we cannot under-stand God because that is not our minds function. The minds function is to express the perfect idea of God experiencing itself as us and surrender the thoughts which seemingly stand in the way of its perfect expression.

These ideas, presenting themselves as us, are continuously re-presenting themselves new in each moment. Our thoughts can only appear to separate us from that which we are a part. Knowing (not a mind function and often confused with faith) allows us to not just accept each moment as perfect but to choose the next greatest vision of what we image in as possible in each new moment called now.

Contamination – Hazardous Thinking

I took a HazMat training course for a company I once worked for.  One of the things I remembered is the statement that;  “dilution is not an acceptable form of disposal”.  The premise being that contamination still exists, although only in a minuscule amount and it has the potential to grow and multiply rapidly.  Without treatment the hazard is still there.

I’ve heard it said that if you keep pouring clean water in a container of dirty water, eventually it will become clear and clean.  However, according to science, it’s still contaminated.  Another way to put it is “if you start out from contamination and don’t treat it properly, it still exists, even though you might not be able to see it”.  Having a choice, it’s a no brain er to drink from a pure source rather than one that’s contaminated.

What we’re really talking about here is the principle of contamination.  Once something has become contaminated it needs to be treated or it can’t be used without further contamination.

What about our minds?  Haven’t we contaminated our minds with some of the thoughts we have?  We have so many mistaken ideas and wrong beliefs in our mind.  Is it any wonder the world is in the shape it’s in?  So what do we do… we try to have good thoughts…  we pour good thoughts into our mind… positive thoughts…  our thinking becomes clearer…   we feel better…  things seem to be clearing up…  but… according to the rule of dilution, our minds are still contaminated. Often it only takes one bad event…  one wrong thought…  and we start that troubled thinking again.  The virus, bacteria, or contaminates grows.  It multiplies rapidly until we’re back to toxic contamination, and negative thinking again.  So, you ask, how can we treat this mind to get rid of the contamination?  The answer is we can’t.

We have to start with a new container, an open mind.  A mind not occupied by our thoughts.  The good news is; there is, within each of us, a clear stream or pool of uncontaminated consciousness that we can go to for clean, clear inspiration.  It can’t be contaminated by the world; it is the essence of all that we are.  All that’s required is a letting go of the contaminated container, a simple request, and an openness to receive what comes.  A new container (like when you partition off a section of your hard drive because your computer has become corrupted) filled from a pure source and a living from that new container.  The corrupt container is still there, you just no longer use it.  We have a tendency to go back to the contaminated container because it’s so familiar to us.  It’s all we’ve ever known.  We can tell however, when we use the wrong container…   it just doesn’t feel right.  Every time that happens…  I mean every time….. just stop…. become quiet and ask.  That’s all it takes……

As we build an awareness that we’re using the wrong container we become more willing to surrender the corrupt thinking and begin again, new, from purity.  It has been described as being born again…  the living waters…  the water of life… Zen mind…  Christ consciousness…  and countless other names.  It is the surrender of the contaminated, corrupt, world view and the recognition of, and surrender to, the pure, divine consciousness that has always been there underneath our corrupt thinking.

Taking it A.P.A.R.T. so it can come together is a method that, when applied, treats contamination of thoughts.  Awareness of mistaken thin king; Pause and become still; Ask for peace, inspiration; Receive something (the most commonly used name for God); Trust, take action on what you received.

Thank you for taking time to read this.  Your soul knows the truth!  Go with the soul.